Dublin

So, tomorrow in the early morning i shove off to san francisco to catch a flight to dublin. then, we go to london and later paris. YAY!!! i'm so happy. Yuko came over tonight and we watched Bowling for Columbine with Scott and Alan. I'm also so happy. She's so cute. Write more later.

change

For those of you who only learn about my life through the internet, I'll fill you in on the changes. I stopped taking Paxill and I'm still happy! I haven't talked to Julia in more than a week. I haven't talked to her for more than 5 minutes for over a month. I finished my finals and papers, and also my application to go to Berlin for next year. It's mailed. I leave for Oakland again in 4 days... for Dublin in 5.

 I am sitting here about to go to sleep cuz I have to drive Yuko and Ayano to the Westin Kierland resort so that they can go on a bus tour of Sedona, Jerome and Montezuma's castle. Who are Yuko and Ayano, you ask? Well, Ayano is Yuko's friend from Berkeley, and Yuko is my friend from Berkeley, from Japan. She is hella cute. For some strange reason that I don't question (wait, I've questioned it constantly for the past two days), she likes me. I guess we're together. She referred to it as "our relationship." I think this is one of the best things that has ever happened to me, because I know that it can't last. Next year, I'll be in Berkeley or Berlin, and she'll be in Tokyo. I'll attempt to learn Japanese and have a huge huge smile whever I think of her saying "oh leally? (or) oh rearry?" But... it'll be done and over. But it's ok, cuz for now, it's not.

 I have this project that I want to work on while I'm in Europe. It's a work in which I discuss 4 occurrences in my life, and connect them and then theorize about what makes them stand out. It will be a sort of temporary answer to the "Who am i?" question. I haven't played guitar at all since I left school, but I've been listenin to lots of music. I saw Andy, Connor, Mike, and Kellen from Cast the First Stone last night, and the
(thought break)

Sorry for the break, but Yuko just came and started asking and worrying about how I just seemed to have gotten rid of Julia. I told her how I felt that I was more excited that Julia was a girl who liked me, than how the relationship made me actually feel. We then talked about some insecurities of the both of us. I am absolutely amazed at how concerned she is for other people. She is the least jaded person that I've ever met. She doesn't juge me. I can actually tell her anything.... Alright, well I gotta get up early tomorrow so I can take her and Ayano, but good lord am I happy at the moment. Current Mood: Genuinely happy

The Intertwined Collections

You know, this livejournal thingy is not so fun when i have nothing to bitch about. i do have to say that this band beefcake messiah from Milford, NH (Scott's home before Sonora) is pretty great. If you don't know who Scott is, you can all fuck yourselves, cuz "you're really missin' out." (direct quote from him himself) him and I just formed a band. After I give my presentation tomorrow, I get to read for fun. I'm reading the Fellowship of the Ring. It's pretty rad. I'm so excited about seeing my friends back home in Phoenix. (I guess almost everyone who reads this is there, all two of you). Um.......... Scott and I finished that song that we were writing. it's pretty great. it's called, "The Intertwined Collections." it's about a guy and a girl being somewhat depressed and afraid, but at least they can be scared together. (Guess what, I'm one of the people.........)

Synopsis of my day

so, i woke up at 7:15 with oatmeal already cooked by my roommate. this is the first time, every other day of the year, i did it for him..... weird. then, i ate it and started reading non-violence theory. i decided it was stupid and just as i put it dow n, realized that i had to write a 350 word essay for german due at 10. it was 8:15. So, I wrote that and took a shower and missed my bus, so i was late to class. then, i went to thai food with asal. i had basil eggplant. it was hella good. then, i w ent to political economy of food lecture, but the lady was an idiot, completely ignorant to everything except "GMO's are bad!" I'm sick of all that. But then, we got out early, and i caught the bus home. i worked on my still-broken computer (this is my roommate's) and then my dad's friend came over from san ramon. he couldn't fix my computer, but i finished my non-violence reading, and i cooked some soup and watched the simpsons. then, i read some of the Trial, by Franz Kafka, the best author in all the world. Yep, that was my day. I'm doing laundry and thinking about someone special right now. i can't wait to be home in a week!!!! i'm so excited about thanksgiving. i miss home and my friends. I really am gonna miss everyone next year, when i'm in europe (yes, i'm also using this as an opportunity to gloat). life has been extra smily lately. i'm working on a song right now. scott wrote the chord progression. i'm working on the arrangement and the words. i want it to be ready by the time i g o home to phoenix, so i can play it for julia. right now, drinking tea out my john guitar mug. i love my parents. ok, now i gotta go read more kafka (the best homework ever).

library

today was great. i missed the bus and then caught the next one and then it broke down, and then my friend went home and slept cuz she was sick so I have noone to talk to. But, I'm excited about that. It'll give me a chance to read, and to be alone. I like being alone outside, just listening and seeing and feeling. It's really beautiful here in the Bay Area right now.

So, I spent lots of the weekend with my roommate's "girlfriend" Olivia. I put that in quotes because they are constantly struggling with the whole idealistic "let's stay together" vs. the practical "we live too far apart" argument. It's really sad, but it's also amazing watching them together. It makes me have more love for myself and for them and for everyone.

I feel really good about life right now. I once again had an amazing phone conversation yesterday, making ever more smiley. I am excited about my lunch that I'm about to eat, a hummus sandwich with cucmber, pickles, and tomato, and then an apple on the side. In fact, I'm done now, even though I had more to say, because the outside is calling (I'm at the library cuz my internet is having problems) Hi, Amanda Krampf. I know vaguely who you are....... E-mail me sometime. Hi Daniel and Caitomccake potato, miss you both.